Chills run through my spine as the Early hours of today stare into mine..
My heart won't stop racing as the cold breeze passes through the window and peeks to see if I'm awake..
The thoughts in my head won't let me be..the mistakes I made haunts me for solutions.
Words I said to you in anger loops in my head..hate in my heart grips me by the lung..
They won't stop..no they don't..
And You dare not to act like they're not there else they'll eat you up faster than nano mites.
Somehow I have to stay up to stay sane..
That seems to be the only time to think of YOU..IT..THEM..and come up with a HOW..WHEN..WHERE..
I had a friend once..she died right in front of me..
Now I try to sleep hoping to meet her in it..I'm still waiting even as I write you.
And for some reason I keep blinking and hoping to fall asleep.
Nah..it just doesn't happen..
And So tonight just like every other night I lie in wait..
Countless number of times do I roll in my bed hoping to fall.
Its 2am..and at this point sleep is still scarce..in the blackness of the night the smoke leans towards me saying "sleep isn't coming tonight..but I can help knock you out into the next 4..5..6months"...everything is suddenly cold as blood seems to stop pumping..
I'm scared out of my mind..I think I've been nailed to my bed..I'm still concious..I think..
Now another darker smoke leans towards me...rests on my body and says "I can make you sleep..for a very long time you will sleep..you get to see her again if you want to..but I can't assure you of the morning sun I warn you"
DEATH!!..I yell inside like I'm about to explode.."Where have you been?!" I ask in excitement..
I need to leave this place..I don't want to come back.
"You can make me sleep you say?!"
...I wait for an answer..but all I get is this load taken away from my body..I still feel very heavy..a whole lot heavier.
I slowly turn to my alarm which reads 3:11am..my lids grows heavier with every blink..
I see her in the distance..she doesn't see me..how do I make her see?!..
"You didn't change one bit" I say to myself..
"I miss you so much"..she do not hear me..
So I walk up to her to say hi..
But this noise..its so deafening..banging in my head like a conga with every sound...it won't let me any closer as I clasp my hands around my ears..
And In the hurt I blink once..blink twice..and I'm staring at the ceiling..
The noise is driving me out of sanity..
I turn and reach for the alarm..
Ah!..that's much better." I think to my half awake self as the sun rays pierces its way through my windows and into my skin.
Did i even sleep?
Thursday 30 June 2011
Monday 27 June 2011
95 TRUTH
WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Milo
2. Last phone call: my friend Enitan
3. Last text message: Oge
4. Last song you listened to: Anthem Of Our Dying Day
5. Last time you cried: last week sunday
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: um..nope
7. Been cheated on: no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: lol..yes
9. Lost someone special: yes..VERY spcial
10. Been depressed: unfortunately
11. Been drunk and threw up: oh my God YES
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. green
13.purple
14. grey
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011)
15. Made a new friend: Yes...
16. Laughed until you cried: Yes
17. Met someone who changed you: somehow
18. Found out who your true friends were:no
19. Found out someone was talking about you: yes..long story
20. Kissed anyone on your friend's list?: yes lol
21. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?: bout 50%
22. How many kids do you want?:5
23. Do you have any pets?: no
24. Do you want to change your name?: only my surname :P
25.What did you do for your last birthday?: a puppy fox
26. What time did you wake up today?: which time cuz I went back to sleep like twice
27.What were you doing at midnight last night?: watching tv
28. Name something you CANNOT wait for: to be descovered
29. Last time you saw your Mother: bout an hour ago
30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: my current situation ..
31. What are you listening to right now?: nothing
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Riley?: nope
33. Who's getting on your nerves right now?: no one for now
34. Most visited webpage: my blog..twitter
35 What's your real name?: Ojimba Lasbrey Naetochukwu
36. Nicknames: lyrically poetic..mp3..rapsbreebs
37. Relationship Status: loool
38. Zodiac sign: sagitarius baby!!!
39. Male or female:male
40. Primary School: Mar_Yola
41. Secondary School: Command Secondary School
42. High school/college: FUTO
43. Hair Color: black
44. Long or short:short
45. Height: HA! i dont know oo
46. Do you have a crush on someone?: what is that?like the phase before like or sumthin?
47: What do you like about yourself?: im funny..i think.,i can change an environment
48. Piercings: none
49. Tattoos: nope...but im craving for one so bad
50. Righty or lefty:both
FIRSTS:
51. First surgery: none
52. First piercing:none
53. First best friend: William Trimnell
54. First sport you joined: wasnt good at sports
55. First vacation: hmmmmm
56. First pair of trainers:fila
RIGHT NOW:
57. Eating: nothing
58. Drinking: nothing
59. I'm about to: write
60. Listening to: nothing
61. Waiting for: time to pass
YOUR FUTURE:
63. Want kids:of course 5
64. Get married: most def
65. Career: singer/entertainer/engineer
WHICH IS BETTER:
66. Lips or eyes: ah!..ild go for the lips
67. Hugs or kisses: i love both..
68. Shorter or taller:just there oo
69. Older or Younger: its something of the mind
70. Romantic or spontaneous: the depends on the other person
71. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
72. Sensitive or loud?: loud
73. Hook-up or relationship?: relationship
74. Kissed a stranger?:huh?...
75. Drank hard liquor?: nope
76. Lost glasses/contacts?: dont use any
77. Sex on first date?: not at all
78. Broken someone's heart?: yes,and still feel bad
79. Been arrested?: no..shhhhh!!
80. Turned someone down?: yeah
81. Cried when someone died?: yeah
82. Fallen for a friend?: we all do that at some point
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
83. Yourself: yes
84. Miracles: yea
85. Love at first sight?: um..that is so not possible
86. Heaven: definitely
87. Santa Clause: my dad is santa
88. Kiss on the first date?: lol..i was THIS close
89. Angels: yes
90. Hell: yea
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
91. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: technically only one can b the bf the rest r jus flings
92. Ever cheated on somebody?:um...not quite
93. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 5years
94. The moment you would choose to relive?: my admission into the varsity
95. Are you afraid of posting this as 95 truths?: Im not afraid of anything physical
1. Last beverage: Milo
2. Last phone call: my friend Enitan
3. Last text message: Oge
4. Last song you listened to: Anthem Of Our Dying Day
5. Last time you cried: last week sunday
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: um..nope
7. Been cheated on: no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: lol..yes
9. Lost someone special: yes..VERY spcial
10. Been depressed: unfortunately
11. Been drunk and threw up: oh my God YES
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. green
13.purple
14. grey
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2011)
15. Made a new friend: Yes...
16. Laughed until you cried: Yes
17. Met someone who changed you: somehow
18. Found out who your true friends were:no
19. Found out someone was talking about you: yes..long story
20. Kissed anyone on your friend's list?: yes lol
21. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life?: bout 50%
22. How many kids do you want?:5
23. Do you have any pets?: no
24. Do you want to change your name?: only my surname :P
25.What did you do for your last birthday?: a puppy fox
26. What time did you wake up today?: which time cuz I went back to sleep like twice
27.What were you doing at midnight last night?: watching tv
28. Name something you CANNOT wait for: to be descovered
29. Last time you saw your Mother: bout an hour ago
30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: my current situation ..
31. What are you listening to right now?: nothing
32. Have you ever talked to a person named Riley?: nope
33. Who's getting on your nerves right now?: no one for now
34. Most visited webpage: my blog..twitter
35 What's your real name?: Ojimba Lasbrey Naetochukwu
36. Nicknames: lyrically poetic..mp3..rapsbreebs
37. Relationship Status: loool
38. Zodiac sign: sagitarius baby!!!
39. Male or female:male
40. Primary School: Mar_Yola
41. Secondary School: Command Secondary School
42. High school/college: FUTO
43. Hair Color: black
44. Long or short:short
45. Height: HA! i dont know oo
46. Do you have a crush on someone?: what is that?like the phase before like or sumthin?
47: What do you like about yourself?: im funny..i think.,i can change an environment
48. Piercings: none
49. Tattoos: nope...but im craving for one so bad
50. Righty or lefty:both
FIRSTS:
51. First surgery: none
52. First piercing:none
53. First best friend: William Trimnell
54. First sport you joined: wasnt good at sports
55. First vacation: hmmmmm
56. First pair of trainers:fila
RIGHT NOW:
57. Eating: nothing
58. Drinking: nothing
59. I'm about to: write
60. Listening to: nothing
61. Waiting for: time to pass
YOUR FUTURE:
63. Want kids:of course 5
64. Get married: most def
65. Career: singer/entertainer/engineer
WHICH IS BETTER:
66. Lips or eyes: ah!..ild go for the lips
67. Hugs or kisses: i love both..
68. Shorter or taller:just there oo
69. Older or Younger: its something of the mind
70. Romantic or spontaneous: the depends on the other person
71. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
72. Sensitive or loud?: loud
73. Hook-up or relationship?: relationship
74. Kissed a stranger?:huh?...
75. Drank hard liquor?: nope
76. Lost glasses/contacts?: dont use any
77. Sex on first date?: not at all
78. Broken someone's heart?: yes,and still feel bad
79. Been arrested?: no..shhhhh!!
80. Turned someone down?: yeah
81. Cried when someone died?: yeah
82. Fallen for a friend?: we all do that at some point
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
83. Yourself: yes
84. Miracles: yea
85. Love at first sight?: um..that is so not possible
86. Heaven: definitely
87. Santa Clause: my dad is santa
88. Kiss on the first date?: lol..i was THIS close
89. Angels: yes
90. Hell: yea
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
91. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: technically only one can b the bf the rest r jus flings
92. Ever cheated on somebody?:um...not quite
93. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 5years
94. The moment you would choose to relive?: my admission into the varsity
95. Are you afraid of posting this as 95 truths?: Im not afraid of anything physical
Friday 10 June 2011
DEATH
In death, there is no coincidence..no mishaps and no mistakes.
What we do not understand is that we are like a rat the cat has by its tail.
Because for everything we do..from the mundane to the monumental..
The people that will have sex and wont with us..
The buses we board everyday..
That moment we spend being happy, angry or sad..
Those little signs we we ignore in our lives..
All these are part of deaths sadistic design leading to the grave.
The people around you need you and some of them need you for their lives to function.
But death does not care about that..
she is the coldest form of nature and has never feared anyone.
She knocks..she enters..and she strikes without minding if you made plans for tomorrow and the day after..
So when we flip a switch to plug in that iron..start the heater or use that clipper..
When we stand at the bus stop thinking we are safe and nothing can harm us in this cool afternoon breeze.
Even when we say our prayers and hoping for a better tomorrow.
Death hears us but does not listen.
She is like the sun and her only job is to shine and nothing will quench her heat.
Because she will take from you what you own dearly..and the world will go on like you were never there..
Your children...your best friend..your lover and your enemy.
Death loves her job
She hates us so she does her job
Death is not cruel..life is..
Death is not near..the end is..
The end is not over..eternity is..
What we do not understand is that we are like a rat the cat has by its tail.
Because for everything we do..from the mundane to the monumental..
The people that will have sex and wont with us..
The buses we board everyday..
That moment we spend being happy, angry or sad..
Those little signs we we ignore in our lives..
All these are part of deaths sadistic design leading to the grave.
The people around you need you and some of them need you for their lives to function.
But death does not care about that..
she is the coldest form of nature and has never feared anyone.
She knocks..she enters..and she strikes without minding if you made plans for tomorrow and the day after..
So when we flip a switch to plug in that iron..start the heater or use that clipper..
When we stand at the bus stop thinking we are safe and nothing can harm us in this cool afternoon breeze.
Even when we say our prayers and hoping for a better tomorrow.
Death hears us but does not listen.
She is like the sun and her only job is to shine and nothing will quench her heat.
Because she will take from you what you own dearly..and the world will go on like you were never there..
Your children...your best friend..your lover and your enemy.
Death loves her job
She hates us so she does her job
Death is not cruel..life is..
Death is not near..the end is..
The end is not over..eternity is..
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